The paragraph you see below was what I wrote last night…
As I write this blog post it is 9:15 p.m. (pst), the thirteenth of March 2014, and it has been nearly three months since I’ve last written a post on my blog. As I scroll through my dashboard, scroll through my blog, scroll down my Reader… I can’t believe I have not written a post in such a long time- especially when I really wanted to many many times. This evening as I sat quietly in bed thinking about things I decided that it was time for me to write, and not just to write, but write on my blog. It was time for me to post something.
I was deep in thought when I began writing last night, and had known what exactly it was that I wanted to say, to type down. But then I got a phone call and by the time the call ended it was past midnight. I felt the need to write from my heart last night and I surprised myself when I took out the laptop and signed on WordPress to begin sharing my thoughts and my feelings on the blog. I have wanted to write a post on my blog several times before last night but never did. When New Years came around, I wanted to write a Happy New Year to you all post. When something exciting came around I wanted to share about it and post pictures of those things. I meant to wish you all a Happy Valentine’s Day. My 1 year blog anniversary came around on February the 19th and I wanted to celebrate it with you all- after all, this blog community has been part of my life for an entire year. I wanted to write about our drought. California has been facing a serious major drought. I think it’s almost accurate to say that we hardly had a winter, it was all warmth and sun for the most part in January, February, and even March. There was so much that I wanted to write and say and share… but I couldn’t get myself to post something and the words wouldn’t come out.
I know my absence might have worried some of you or had you wonder what all happened to me. “Where did she go?” you might have thought. I do apologize for not staying connected and keeping you all informed, for not keeping you updated. I apologize if I had you concerned.
As much as I would like to share and write about everything going on in my personal life, I don’t think it would be right of me to write it all down. I can’t do that right now at least. Maybe I will touch on some things later, but I don’t think I should right now. The truth is, the past couple of months have been filled with blessings and joy, and happiness, and love…and love from the Father above… but they have also been filled with loss and heartache. It is the little in everything that has kept me away from posting. I have been okay though. By now, I’m used to experiencing the mountains and the valleys… to me, that’s just part of life. And sometimes, life requires that I keep my focus and energy on certain things… and certain persons. And certain persons was where my attention has been lately. I feel I needed to let you all know what has kept me away for so long because I really do appreciate you and I enjoy blogging. But though I blog, life still runs its course and this time it had me going through quite a process. Like a painting, a painting begins as a blank canvas and the painter adds and removes, adds and removes until he sees a masterpiece. I see times and life experiences such as the ones I’ve been experiencing lately as God tearing me down and molding me and rebuilding me. And though sometimes the process is painful, I thank Him for allowing me to choose Him and for allowing me to give my life to Him. I want Him to have His free way with me so that He could make me what He needs. I wouldn’t want it any other way. I am so glad my life is in His hands and that He’s the master artist… turning me into His master piece. But more than that, He is God. He is my God and He’s the Best.
There is a hymn that I appreciate so much by Annie Johnson Flint titled God Hath Not Promised Skies Always Blue. That hymn describes how the Lord has never promised us that once we became saved and began our walk with Him that our lives would always be smooth sailing. In fact, there will be trials and difficulties, but although those things may come, somehow, because we have the Lord, life is still sweet, trials and difficulties become bearable and though we might be experiencing sorrow…we can still feel the Lord’s grace all around us, carrying us, sustaining us, and bearing us.
I would like to write another post soon, updating you on what’s been going on around here (home with the pets, the compost, and the garden). It feels as if Spring is already here in California and I can’t wait to begin gardening. I have already gotten my hands in the dirt this past week (I couldn’t wait) and I would love to document my gardening progress on the blog. I’ll also be getting some baby chicks tomorrow, which will be my first time raising chicks. Before this new year I had hoped to develop some kind of blogging schedule, but right now I just have to take it one post at a time. And right now I need to sign offline for the day but before I do I would just like to touch on one more thing. If any of you out there are discouraged or going through a difficult time… I would like to encourage you to keep trusting in the Lord. Don’t let go of Him and hold on tight. Even if what you’re holding on with is that last little fiber on a string. Tell Him, “Lord, I need You.” “Lord, strengthen me with the Power of Your spirit into my inner man.” ( That prayer is from the verse in Ephesians 3:16) And if you don’t even have the energy or the strength to say that, just breathe out His name, “Jesus, Lord Jesus.” When I go through hardship and trials, or when I have those days that I just feel so discouraged or exhausted, I ask the Lord to carry me. I ask Him to hug me, to hold me. I tell Him “Lord, I can’t do it, I need You to do it. I need You to guide me through this day, I need You to get me through this day. Carry me through this day, Lord.” If you ask Him to be there for you, I guarantee you He will. Your day may not be perfect, your situation might not change, but something within you will be calm and collected and peaceful, and sober- and that is the Lord getting you through.
Matthew 19:29 ” And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields for My name’s sake shall receive a hundred times as much and shall inherit eternal life.”
Ephesians 3:16 “That He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His spirit into the inner man,”
The times are changing, the age is changing, but oh how I appreciate how the Lord’s Word never changes. His Word is steady and stable, righteous and just, living and life.
Until next time all, grace- peace- & blessings! <3
“God hath not promised skies always blue, flower-strewn path ways all our lives through. God hath not promised sun without rain, joy without sorrow peace without pain. But God hath promised strength for the day, rest for the labor, light for the way. Grace for the trials, help from above, unfailing sympathy, undying love…”
-Annie Johnson Flint